hamba allah yang kerdil..

salam...

disapointment. should i feel that way. if you try to do things to help others, and doing it with all your heart but others take it half heartedly, what should you feel?

sad, anger?


i just don't know how to react. maybe i'm just expecting too much from others. maybe i'm just too commited in fulfiling my obligation, what i promised is what i should do. or maybe because i'm just a workoholic, that demands anything that involves me being done perfectly. but mind one thing. i'm a human. maybe what i think is right can be wrong in perspective of others. i never intend to be demanding, all that i hope is please, have the sense of responsibility. fulfill your obligation. do not run away from problems, face it. if you hide from it, it can always find you. haunt you. and of course, if i'm not the one on the right side, again PLEASE...remind me. i'm just another tiny creature created by ALLAH that have needs, will and feelings. i can always listen to others.


again, another episodes that stir my emotions...


2 questions was brought up upon me that made me stumble and think very hard.

1st : ' aku jarang tgok ko balik, org lain, tiap2 minggu ade jer yg balik '
2nd : ' org yg dah ada calon pun blom tentu kahwin, siapa tau, ptg ni pun maybe t'jumpa sesiapa (or something like it..) '


soalan pertama;

memang 'sentap' bila dengar soalan ni. ye, mmg aku jarang balik. sebab?
1. aku sendiri x tau, mungkin sbb nnt berat hati aku nak balik sini.
2. aku akan rindu masakan mak sgt2...
3. mak pernah cakap, belajar elok2, kalau kat rumah x bley concentrate belajar, stay je kat asrama (sbb mak tau yg aku mmg akan melekat depan tv+bgun lambat kalo dok rumah..)
kesimpulannya? aku nak balik sgt2~~~~tapi masih terikat dengan tanggungjawab dekat sini..so i need to study hard lepas tu balik tanpa rasa tension.

soalan dua;
well, i can just smile in response to that statement. it awakes back something that i try to let go. and to make things worst, i do saw that person later in the evening. again, being so close yet sooooo far. so nisa, work hard to be strong and face the fact.