...blank stare...

assalamualaikum...

Its weird how a sight of a person can turn your world around. Enough to turn your fear into strength. I'm just not in the mood of doing things, yet I have few big assignments to complete within a REALLY short time. yeah, i'm suffocating....I'm losing my motivation at the wrong time. may be, just may be, a glance of him may uplift my spirit...to at least help me draw a smile on my face and keep strong to accomplish what I am expected to do...
   
                                                  till then, just don't loose yourself... keep focus...and be strong...please...

ASSignmeNTS...

 assalamualaikum....

stress itu normal untuk pelajar.

eh, tertukar bahasa pulak!! disebabkan rasa nak termuntah menulis proposal research dalam bahasa inggeris, saya sudah trauma dengan bahasa itu. haha, bukan la..saja rasa nak menulis dalam bahasa melayu pulak.


ok, balik pada stress tadi, student mana yang xde assignment. Sebagaimana budak-budak sekolah x dapat lari dari homework matematik, karangan dan yg sewaktu dengannya; begitu jugak la pelajar universiti x boleh dipisahkan dengan ASSignments..bezanya cuma, kat sekolah kalau homework tak siap, cikgu denda, kalau kat U assignment x jalan, bye2! markah kene potong tanpa belas kasihan. x de nye lecturer nak suruh berdiri luar kelas ke, denda jalan itik ke. sebab tu kat sekolah dulu homework cepat siap. negative reinforcement tu kadang2 bagus juga. kalau guna pendekatan terlalu humanistic, ni la jadinya....bersenang lenang dulu, last minit baru terkejar assignment. nak buat macam mana, saya suka kerja last minute!



Perkara2 normal yang dilakukan sepanjang proses menyiapkan assignment; secara sedar atau luar sedar....
 

1. crack your head...pecah kepala fikirkan nasib kenapa la banyak sangat assignments..

brainstorming, brain on fire....otak mula ligat, muka nampak kelat..
yg tengah tu cik sappa, dia bukan anggota Fantastic Four yg ade power hasilkan api tu..tp dia boleh jadi 'berapi' kalau  kerja mula menimbun...tp masih x boleh lawan betapa 'berapinya' lecturer kalau assignment tak hantar..

2. cari semula di mana larinya sesuatu yang bernama KERAJINAN. sebab, idea selalu ade, tapi rasa rajin nak buat kerja tu yg tak de..

cari dimana idea bersembunyi..

3. berdoa & tawakkal. tapi kalo dapat assignment terus skip kat step ni, memang sampai bila pun x kan siap assignment tu.
DOA itu perlu, tapi USAHA itu penting jugak.

bila buntu perlu berdoa minta petunjuk....di permudahkan hendaknya segala urusan..,

bila di baca semula, tatabahasa bahasa melayu saya sudah tidak indah lagi. owh, harap2 cikgu BM sekolah dulu tak TERjumpa dan TERbaca blog ini. 

ok, perlu berhenti merepek dan mula bekerja!

the unsung leader

assalamualaikum..

A man is the leader of himself. If we direct ourselves to be a good person, then we will become a better person eventually. Yes, we are the unsung leader.


I was glancing through the 'hall of fame' of our nursing department while waiting for the English teacher whom may help us in translating our research questionnaire. The faces of seniors, dressed in their graduation robe. They has this some sort of glow. The look that say ' We love nursing and we'll bring change '. I can't help but wondering if they still have that same 'glow' or has it withered away.......


and so I ask myself,  what will I become once I took the step out of this nursing school?

'Can I serve the purpose of my profession well???'

'To what extent is my 4 years stores of knowledge be applicable???'

and the worse is.....

' Will I eventually be 'desensitize' with  the common practices that 'degrades' the nursing image???'

haaa...will I lost that 'glow'??


and while I was looking for a case study in ward, I witness something...

A senior, who is giving nursing care to a patient...and took time to actually talk to the patient and her relatives, explaining what the procedure and always reassess the patients' comfort. Still practicing what were taught in this nursing school....and still has that glow...


so I tell myself, what ever I do, in the end I'm the one who'll decide who I will be...for I am the leader of myself...and I too, want to have that 'glow' everlasting.....


3 years back......................

aren't we glowing? (maybe due to effect of editing~~)
by the way, its SARJANA, not SAUJANA. Saujana is a 'nasyid' group, though the way we lineup do look like a nasyid group...haha..

absurd

assalamualaikum..

A small, unimportant things done by a particular person can throw a festive in my heart...

somehow..it drew a smile on my face..

and 

made me forget the reality for a while.....

to shop or not to shop....

assalamualaikum..


Shopping for UK posting. yay! I love shopping!
Then, the excitement just died, vanished.......... winter clothing are expensive!
I surveyed Universal Traveler for thermal wear and let out a long sigh looking at its price.....  RM199.00.

                                        "It's the one with highest quality", said the salesperson.
 
I stood there, thinking.............

my heart screamed ' just take it!!!!'
but my mind reason out  'looks like quality isn't my priority now'

So I thanked the salesperson and left the store as I glanced over their beautifully made collections of winter coats.

Ok...there's no need to be sad. I can continue my shopping in UK....hopefully!! I heard that things are much affordable there. As for now, maybe I should just shop a thing or two that I can afford.  Now let see what i already have....


Winter's ears cover... 

a gift from my sister. 

A pair of hand glove from Sox World....

ok two pairs, I was planning to buy everything in black but the one in purple shades are SOOO tempting..

.

 Winter scarf...
100% Wool...and hand made.

It took me almost 3 weeks to finish this....after undoing and redoing it for 3 or 4 times..I haven't done this for quiet some time...

and a Winter Coat....
from F.O.S in Mid Valley..

It's warm enough, but i don't no if it'll feel the same over there.  

Things that I don't have:
1. A comfortable pairs of socks.
2. sweatshirts (maybe...)
3. A pair of nice, comfortable boots (might buy it over there)
4. Medications
   - PCM for anticipated fever, headache
   - mist spray to prevent nasal bleed
   - antihistamine for allergic rhinitis.
   - lip balm
4. Food supply
5. Travel insurance

There's just a lot to squeeze in my tight budget. Huuu....its time to shop well!

research (ii) : stress reliever

assalamualaikum..

we got overly motivated tonight. I mean, me and my research mates. we stayed at ibnu sina until 12 past midnight! credits to 'teh ais' from mak yong I guess, for providing us with extra 'caffein' power boost. (and extra trips to toilets too..)

so far, we've discuss a few components from chapter 1 for research proposal. that would includes the research aims/purpose, objective (specific version of purpose), research questions and hypothesis. yay..at least we had progressed in something.

We are not sure whether we're on the right track, we hope we are. But then again, who does? all of us are amatuer in research.

me and Joanne with our stress reliever..
aiyaa, i look like a 'nenek' already, too much thinking is a 'youth-look' killer.

the cat (in the middle) had been a good help to keep us alert toward the end of our discussion. its frantic effort "pawing" a plastic cup which appears to stuck on it's muzzle indirectly help increase our endorphins level.

now, what the h**l do i mean by ' increasing endorphins level"???!

well, when we laugh, hormones that related to stress such as dopamine and epinephrine will decrease in productions while 'happy' hormone called endorphin is being released. so, you'll become more relax . there are also some physiologic changes such as increase heart rate and exercises skeletal muscle which are present with laughter. when you laugh, you will also increase oxygen supply to your brain. this factor will promote alertness to a person. 

                                                                                                                         ------> as stated here

so, when you're sleepy or stress, laugh your heart out! 

ps: caffein's after effect hasn't worn off..haa, i can't sleep~~~~

research (i)

assalamualaikum...

the research equilibrium....

A lot of READING + a lot of THINKING + a lot of BRAINSTORMING  ===>>
uncountable cups of coffee + a lot of  HEADACHE + lack of SLEEPING + a mount of STRESS

to come up with something good comes with lots of works. haaaa...

i'm stressed. sudden rushed on our research proposal! our research progress was bit delayed from others.

we only see our supervisor this week, and was told that our research topic was lame. oh no! we were asked to explore new topic, came out with research problem, and title. and to complete our research proposal in a month time. CRAZY!!!!!

To do so, we are required to find as much  literature review as we can get. then we decided on topic related to nursing report and our research supervisor approve this. phew...the sky now looks brighter.

but not long because most of the previous research were done qualitatively; which is a "no go" for us. there comes the dark clouds again. and so left me, Gervanne and Joanne; staying back in class till late evening ; brainstorming.

one thing that i'm thankful with is to be blessed with a very concern supervisor. they really guide us well. after arguments and tiring discussion, we manage to tackle the topic into going in quantitative direction. yay, the sky is bright again, the birds is chirping, the flowers blooms..haha, it was such a good relief~~~~

Joanne jotting down ideas..brainstorming..

now, we can proceed to complete the first chapter of research proposal. huuu...another headache in the making. may we survive!