Showing posts with label nursing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label nursing. Show all posts

Friday, July 27, 2012

the next stage..

Assalamualaikum...


 It's time to grow up. There will be no more depending on ayah. It's time to be independent, finding my own way on how to live my life. Somehow I can't imagine life not being a student. I love being student. To be given  low level of accountability yet a fair amount of trust. Now, the consequences of every decision made bears on my own shoulder. I never thought that growing up could be so intimidating but still, it's just another cycle of life to go through.


I heard stories on how some of my seniors struggle to settle with a descent job even though being in a high demand profession. It's demoralizing and sad to know that our qualification was downgraded by our own profession. For now, all that we can do is to try and market ourselves, to whoever whom appreciate our existence. Maybe, things will change. someday....


 As for time being, lets go for job hunting....




:)



Wednesday, June 20, 2012

sudah siap!

asalamualaikum...
20 Jun 2012
6.45am, 
Ibnu Sina, Kolej Tun Dr Ismail
 Thesis writing completed!!


muka2 dua hari tak tido malam~~


Sunday, June 17, 2012

strangers with obligation

There she lied, confined on a caged bed. As part of her safety caution so they say. In her own isolated unit. Sometime visited by strangers with duty, seldom by her own flesh and blood. Help being offered to ease her burden but almost always, she insist on doing things with her own two hands. Stands, even crawl on her own two feet. She wants to keep being independent. But she's too weak. The strive to be independent always end to no avail. She was always helped.

until one day, out of the blue, she found strength.

the strength to free herself from her caged bed and to the toilet. No one knows how. Perhaps, driven by panicked. Panicked of the sight of blood that she just coughed out from her ailing lung. But...she's too weak. The place where she stood was now the ground where she laid.

Still, she was saved. By none other than strangers with obligation.

Her strength's wearing thin. Coughing out blood became a routine. Still, she seldom seek for aid nor attention. Seldom visited by those who supposed to love her unconditionally.

Then came the day,

Coughing became unbearable. Blood spurted out beyond her limit to tolerate. She no longer possess the will to fight. She was pulse-less.

Still she survived.

But hardly living. Breathing initiated by machine...heart still pumping thanks to medicine. and the rest was under He the All Mighty to control. Visitors came....just to visit...

She fought to survive. and those strangers, had no longer possessed any power to do anything. She was no longer allowed to be saved. Her life is now in the hand of the All Mighty.  Blood pressure steadily decline, pulse became gradually weak...until none of those vitals were detectable. Two days were her limit. Her final destination had arrived.

 As she stared at death, only those strangers were by her side. Strangers who were not there because it was part of their obligation, but stayed for they were morally driven.

For they believe..

No body deserve to be alone when their time is up.


   

 

Monday, January 30, 2012

macam mimpi..


Dah dua minggu jejak kaki semula ke Malaysia...
setelah dua bulan hidup berkelana, merantau di bumi orang..
aku masih x percaya yg dah jejak kaki kat negara orang..

after spending 22 years confined in Malaysia, this is the first time I ever see the world beyond Malaysia..
you know, things that happen first time...
have a special spot in your memory.. 
and always hard to forget..

so...
ape yang da jd 2 bulan lepas rasa mcm mimpi...


orang tanya aku, rindu London x?
aku akan jawab..
hooo YeaH..
bukan nak poyo, tapi jujur dengan perasaan sendiri..
aku rindu London...


mungkin sebab dah adapt dengan hidup kat sana,
hidup berdikari..
naik bas sendiri..kadang2 pergi keluar shopping sendiri..
jalan2 kat London pada masa tu dah macam jalan2 kat Malaysia..
Bila dah balik jalan2 kat Malaysia pulak rasa macam jalan2 kat London..


YA 
aku rindu London..jauh disudut hati..

especially their parks....
breathtaking..
the perfect please to be during this stressful week..
exam..

Oxford University Park

ok 
SNAP!
dah, continue study!


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