assalamualaikum....
when i was 6, my mom teaches me verses in Quran and solat. i remember how afraid i was when i can't recite the surah she had taught. but still i read it out loud (with lot of mistakes) because mom said those who did not pray and read Quran will not go to heaven and will be friends with ghost and satan. so i pray and read Quran with mom's guidance because i'm afraid of ghost. NOW i'm able to pray and recite Quran on my own...not because of ghost but LillahiTa'ala....
when i was 7, i always adore bookshops. i remember reading enid blyton series that my father bought for us. it was written in english and i don't even understand a word! yet i still hold on to that book, scan page by page with dictionary as my companion, trying to understand the story. i only did UNDERSTAND the whole story when i was in standard 5. NOW i'm able to understand and converse in English a lot more better..not because i'm forced to understand it, but i love to learn it....
when i was 9, mathematics is equal to nightmare. i remember asking my dad how to solve mathematics homeworks and he was soooo straight in teaching. i was once pinch by my math teacher because i did not completed my homework. i hate maths but i'm not going to lose. nah..never! and so i did a lot of mathematics exercises, improving my score in exam and huh! NOW, i finally score A for UPSR, PMR, SPM and Matriculation....not because of the challenge that i made to myself, but for the satisfaction i get whenever i help others to solve their math homework...
when i was 12, i love to watch japanese drama called Power Office Girl. there was also visits from japanese student to my school. i fell in love with their language. from that moment i decided that i want to be able to speak their language and fly to japan one day...i was so influenced by their songs, anime and drama. without realizing it, i can understand a bit of their language. NOW, i need to really learn how to communicate in japan...not just for self satisfaction...but because Allah had granted my prayers to go to Japan, insyallah...
when i was 16, i was asked to decide for my future. science stream, bussiness or art. so i chose science for i dream to become a doctor. i love to watch medical series and i admires doctors for their intelligence and ability to help others. i study hard to ensure that i achieve the level of knowledge needed to save life. but efforts alone is not enough. NOW, here i am, in the faculty of medicine in UKM.... not as a medical student, but a proud nursing student. with perhaps, almost the same level of knowledge but differ in practice.
Allah, offers us with what we need not what we desired. life is a journey where opportunities is given equally to all but may only belong to those who worked for it, with Allah's will. i'm grateful with what i gain for now, and i hope for His guidance to achieve what i need in the future.
just a REMINDER for me who always FORGETS.....
