Showing posts with label bila kepala serabut. Show all posts
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Monday, July 9, 2012

saya ade ulser

Assalamualaikum..

saya ada ulser di mulut. saya jarang berjodoh dengan ulser, jadi kali ini ulser yg datang membawa bersama kesakitan yang WOW! sakit yang dah meragut tumpuan saya yang patutnya terpaku meneliti nota. ini adalah minggu final exam. final yang final...finally. sebab lepas ini jika tiada aral melintang, saya bukan lagi bergelar seorang pelajar. mungkin agak mengada-ngada disini. tapi who cares. saya perlu diversional therapy!

oh ulser berdenyut lagi. begitu juga dengan kepala yang turut sama terkesan daripada sakit itu. letaknya ulser itu hampir di bibir. jadi bibir pun turut merana. rasa bagai terbakar pun ade. nak senyum pun perlu fikir dua kali, apatah lagi nak ketawa. Ouch. Dua skills refleks yang saya mahir, yang buat saya gembira...kini diragut sementara. oh perlu sembuh segera. kerana minggu ini, saya ada alasan untuk tersenyum lebar. macam mana nak senyum kalau muka berkerut.??

ouch. rasa terbakar lagi. air garam dah dikumur. sampai tertelan pulak. tapi belum berkesan. ade petua lain. letak kicap, letak marjerin, kumur listerin dan macam-macam lagi. Yang paling mujarab ialah minum air yang cukup. sebab itu lah pencegah utama ulser itu. Kini dah terkena. terima je lah.

mungkin perlu beli krim Bonjela. Mereka kata mujarab. Saya tak pernah cuba.
akhir kata. ouch.
watashiwa kuchibiru ga tottemo itai desu. 




sedikit kata semangat.
 sudah!
 perlu pergi menghadap nota.

Thursday, June 28, 2012

Insomnia talks...

it's been busy...now it is less busy,

Alhamdulillah my thesis writing was completed. that's the mother of all headache. it's done. yipee! though we got mixed review from our supervisor, i can only hope that we would be confident and knowledgeable enough to fight off all the queries during the research presentation.

to celebrate our freedom, we indulge ourselves with dinner at wang solo ayam penyet and new brand of frozen yogurt in town - Snoggurt. yummy.



yummy. this is mango+chocolate yogurt. it gives of sour and sweet combination. taste just about the same as Tutti Fruiti. A+ for the interior decoration of the shop. comel sgt!

me with sleep deprived face. just look at those eye bags. aiyoo..anyway, they have this section with sofa that looks like a bed- I guess, don't exactly know how to describe it one thing for sure, it was very cozy.



 It was a huge relief when the presentation was postpone caused i'm not in my best state right now. Insomnia had kicked in. Insomnia was history... unfortunately, history was doomed to be repeated.  It's been a week, being an owl. I only slept after 7 am. my ability to focus plummeted. Basically, any information that I gain goes to my short term memory 'inbox'. That is not a good sign. Especially when final exam is coming.

Staying up is not good. it alters your metabolism- you'll tend to eat more ergo, easily to gain weight; it messes with your ability to focus on daytime and worst of all, you'll end up having eye bag with 'panda' eye effect.

So what I did during those wee hours..?

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

random

assalamualaikum..


''.....You don't let your own problems affect you, you're never out of control, which is good....but, boring."
-anonymous-


Reality hurts. Even if I do want to change, I doubted that much will be changing. Maybe I just settle with being 'boring'. I'm sure, there are someone who can tolerate boring.

-hard truth in a life of budak skema-  

Saturday, March 10, 2012

self-talk

I want to say that i don't have enough time...but who does?
I want to say that I'm busy but no one is free..
I want to shout that I'm sick and tired...but so does everyone else..
I want to say that I'm not fit to lead others, but no one else is up for the challenge...
I hate the fact that I care much about others than myself, but I can't change that attitude..


I always try to understand others but at this moment, nobody seem to understand me...
people may see your potential...but only you yourself knows your limit.
and i'm at my limit..


Monday, February 27, 2012

final year blues..

assalamualaikum...
It's happening. The beginning of the end...and they made me class rep. I DON'T WANT TO BE CLASS REP.!!! especially this semester. I'm too tired to handle myself, can I manage others?

Been tired and short of breath lately, my sleep hours was totally off, night felt like day. Its obvious. Mum and Dad always lectured me for being an owl throughout the sem break. It's like my circardian rhythm had loss its sanity. This is not jet lag caused that ended a week after i landed back in Malaysia. My immune system is low, rhinitis comes and go like whenever they want dragging along the hay fever. I don't know what I'm having. With all that symptoms? Final year blues?? The time that people think you are up for the challenge but you still doubted yourself. Stress maybe...

 ..but as much as I don't want this responsibility so does the other 24 people in the class. Someone got to do it anyway. Guess I'm that 'lucky' one.


 Ya Allah please ease my path~~


huh...Enough whining over your fate Nisa. Get a grip.


oh by the way, rep. = representative.

Saturday, February 4, 2012

almost ending

assalamualaikum....

and there goes the last paper....

some went back straight away, others go jogging, watch movies..

saffa and I chose to pamper our stomach at Pak Hailam's kopitiam @ Tesco Cheras

my share...

itadakimas~~
three layer tea
 and

fried mee hoon with curry chicken








comment: Just OK and a bit pricey...Saffa's choice of asam laksa taste yummy though..




compare to this biscuits...
it only cost 46 pence in UK, about RM2.50....look how much money they're making here...
possibly the hassle of importing drove them to sell it for this price..


this used to sum up breakfast, lunch and dinner most of the days in the previous 2 months....
yeah, I am definitely putting on weight here..

Thursday, December 15, 2011

menu harian..

menu harian:

1. roti + tuna/telur goreng / enak dimakan begitu saja..
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2. biskut : biskut kering, biskut oreo..
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3. megi : kadang2 rendam, kadang2 masak dalam periuk tambah telur, kalau rajin pergi goreng
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4. nasi : opcoz dengan lauk. bergantung kalau sempat.
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.LAUK.

5. telur : rebus, goreng, masak sambal..
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6 kentang : goreng, masak sambal
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7. kacang buncis : goreng ngan bawang
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argh..nak makan daging, ayam, ikan!!!

huhu...

so, which one for dinner???








hmm....tengah google gambar roti..tiba-tiba gambar ni yang keluar.....
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hadeh, sampai keluar air mata aku gelak tgok tajuk dia. *gelak guling-guling : 'Roti Kapada Aur Makaan'. hahah bunyi macam 'Roti Kan Ada, Kau Makan!' huuu...huuu..huu...memang kene sebijik la kat aku. dah, jgn ngade2 pergi makan je roti tu..


ps: semua gambar ihsan google.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

conteng

tak sangka...
rupa-rupanya.....
dah lama tak pegang pensel....
asyik mengetuk keyboard, menaip assignment..
bila pegang pensel...
tiada tulisan yg terbentuk..
hanya ada lakaran...

.......

sibuk betul hidup disini..
sampai lupa...
saya dah lama tak melukis...






lakaran tu melambangkan emosi...tengok, hasil contengan pun muka tension...

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

...blank stare...

assalamualaikum...

Its weird how a sight of a person can turn your world around. Enough to turn your fear into strength. I'm just not in the mood of doing things, yet I have few big assignments to complete within a REALLY short time. yeah, i'm suffocating....I'm losing my motivation at the wrong time. may be, just may be, a glance of him may uplift my spirit...to at least help me draw a smile on my face and keep strong to accomplish what I am expected to do...
   
                                                  till then, just don't loose yourself... keep focus...and be strong...please...

Friday, October 21, 2011

ASSignmeNTS...

 assalamualaikum....

stress itu normal untuk pelajar.

eh, tertukar bahasa pulak!! disebabkan rasa nak termuntah menulis proposal research dalam bahasa inggeris, saya sudah trauma dengan bahasa itu. haha, bukan la..saja rasa nak menulis dalam bahasa melayu pulak.


ok, balik pada stress tadi, student mana yang xde assignment. Sebagaimana budak-budak sekolah x dapat lari dari homework matematik, karangan dan yg sewaktu dengannya; begitu jugak la pelajar universiti x boleh dipisahkan dengan ASSignments..bezanya cuma, kat sekolah kalau homework tak siap, cikgu denda, kalau kat U assignment x jalan, bye2! markah kene potong tanpa belas kasihan. x de nye lecturer nak suruh berdiri luar kelas ke, denda jalan itik ke. sebab tu kat sekolah dulu homework cepat siap. negative reinforcement tu kadang2 bagus juga. kalau guna pendekatan terlalu humanistic, ni la jadinya....bersenang lenang dulu, last minit baru terkejar assignment. nak buat macam mana, saya suka kerja last minute!



Perkara2 normal yang dilakukan sepanjang proses menyiapkan assignment; secara sedar atau luar sedar....
 
1. crack your head...pecah kepala fikirkan nasib kenapa la banyak sangat assignments..

brainstorming, brain on fire....otak mula ligat, muka nampak kelat..
yg tengah tu cik sappa, dia bukan anggota Fantastic Four yg ade power hasilkan api tu..tp dia boleh jadi 'berapi' kalau  kerja mula menimbun...tp masih x boleh lawan betapa 'berapinya' lecturer kalau assignment tak hantar..
2. cari semula di mana larinya sesuatu yang bernama KERAJINAN. sebab, idea selalu ade, tapi rasa rajin nak buat kerja tu yg tak de..

cari dimana idea bersembunyi..


3. berdoa & tawakkal. tapi kalo dapat assignment terus skip kat step ni, memang sampai bila pun x kan siap assignment tu.
DOA itu perlu, tapi USAHA itu penting jugak.

bila buntu perlu berdoa minta petunjuk....di permudahkan hendaknya segala urusan..,


bila di baca semula, tatabahasa bahasa melayu saya sudah tidak indah lagi. owh, harap2 cikgu BM sekolah dulu tak TERjumpa dan TERbaca blog ini. 

ok, perlu berhenti merepek dan mula bekerja!

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

research (ii) : stress reliever

assalamualaikum..

we got overly motivated tonight. I mean, me and my research mates. we stayed at ibnu sina until 12 past midnight! credits to 'teh ais' from mak yong I guess, for providing us with extra 'caffein' power boost. (and extra trips to toilets too..)

so far, we've discuss a few components from chapter 1 for research proposal. that would includes the research aims/purpose, objective (specific version of purpose), research questions and hypothesis. yay..at least we had progressed in something.

We are not sure whether we're on the right track, we hope we are. But then again, who does? all of us are amatuer in research.


me and Joanne with our stress reliever..
aiyaa, i look like a 'nenek' already, too much thinking is a 'youth-look' killer.


the cat (in the middle) had been a good help to keep us alert toward the end of our discussion. its frantic effort "pawing" a plastic cup which appears to stuck on it's muzzle indirectly help increase our endorphins level.

now, what the h**l do i mean by ' increasing endorphins level"???!



well, when we laugh, http://www.emocutez.com hormones that related to stress such as dopamine and epinephrine will decrease in productions while 'happy' hormone called endorphin is being released. so, you'll become more relax http://www.emocutez.com. there are also some physiologic changes such as increase heart ratehttp://www.emocutez.com and exercises skeletal muscle http://www.emocutez.comwhich are present with laughter. when you laugh, you will also increase oxygen supply to your brain. this factor will promote alertness to a person. 

                                                                                                                         ------> as stated here





so, when you're sleepy or stress, laugh your heart out! 



ps: caffein's after effect hasn't worn off..haa, i can't sleep~~~~

Sunday, October 2, 2011

research (i)

assalamualaikum...

the research equilibrium....

A lot of READING + a lot of THINKING + a lot of BRAINSTORMING  ===>>
uncountable cups of coffee + a lot of  HEADACHE + lack of SLEEPING + a mount of STRESS

to come up with something good comes with lots of works. haaaa...


i'm stressed. sudden rushed on our research proposal! our research progress was bit delayed from others.

we only see our supervisor this week, and was told that our research topic was lame. oh no! we were asked to explore new topic, came out with research problem, and title. and to complete our research proposal in a month time. CRAZY!!!!!

To do so, we are required to find as much  literature review as we can get. then we decided on topic related to nursing report and our research supervisor approve this. phew...the sky now looks brighter.

but not long because most of the previous research were done qualitatively; which is a "no go" for us. there comes the dark clouds again. and so left me, Gervanne and Joanne; staying back in class till late evening ; brainstorming.

one thing that i'm thankful with is to be blessed with a very concern supervisor. they really guide us well. after arguments and tiring discussion, we manage to tackle the topic into going in quantitative direction. yay, the sky is bright again, the birds is chirping, the flowers blooms..haha, it was such a good relief~~~~


Joanne jotting down ideas..brainstorming..
now, we can proceed to complete the first chapter of research proposal. huuu...another headache in the making. may we survive!


Monday, September 19, 2011

Adult Learners

assalamualaikum..

Handling assignment without prior insight is tedious. Reading and reading and reading to the extent of asking myself, "What on earth am I reading? am I supposed to know all this??" That's what I encounter as soon as this semester begin. yup. Life as a final year student has finally begin. Living up to the expectation that you should be able to comprehend everything. pheww...Adult learning they say..There are so much things to do yet I didn't know where to start.

After staring at the dark sky for almost a week, finally came the sunlight that illuminates those darkness. All it takes is to ask. Yes. Ask for guidance from those who possess the knowledge. That's how you learn.  Asking question. We, or me, myself I supposed; always take the 'opportunity to ask' for granted. The right person is there but the idea is somewhere else, so I end up with no question. Therefore, from now on wards,  I should be cognizant of all the the resource there is to gain information and appreciate it. Sure, internet provide all the answer in the world, but the value of the information lies on how you understand the gist of the knowledge it hold. And the key to help you understand better is by discussing and questioning.

So next time, when you don't know what to do, go and ask for opinions...and do ask from the right person... :)

It is not foolish to feel stupid for a moment than being dumb forever.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

@_@





curiosity kills the cat....but at least the cat died learning something...
don't kill your curiosity just because a cat died...or else the cat died to no avail....


am experiencing adverse effect from reading piles of  notes in febrile state...
 ....just ignore this absurd explanation... 


should start scanning and stop digging new information...can't outrun the time now...

Monday, May 2, 2011

is it study week or study weak??

assalamualaikum...


this is about me, babbling to myself about how i screwed up my study week and what i should do to stop this disaster! 


did you ever feel like banging your head to the wall..? http://www.emocutez.com yes i did. so much about challenging yourself, trying to be different from others.  i should have play safe and pick a cardiac case like most half of my course mate did. then i wouldn't have wasted my precious time trying to figure out how to write my case study.urgh!! i hardly begin!! served you right Nisa! phew...yes i'm whining! my alter ego is probably laughing out right now, saying 'i said so!' while my other half was trying to figure out how to solve this...


huuu, ok calm down. pull yourself together. now what option do i have. my biggest problem now is how to explain the patient's diagnosis which presented with so many complications. i was too eager to write about nursing aspect of caring a ventilated patient. i forgot that her medical diagnosis shares the same important points. aiyoo..how should i begin. maybe i should just proceed with other parts that i already know, and sort out the other problem later. i don't know. i'm too stress to think, i'm still lacking of motivation to write....and to study..


-------------------> haah, somebody please slap me in my face! <---------------------

you know, when you are anxious about something, you'll tend to divert your attention from the source by doing other thing that make you feel good. i got that idea from one of the mental health lecture last sem. and guess what? it is true. i am shifting my attention to other things that is no where in the list of MUST DO list. see, i'm the living testimonial for that psychological theory. so to defy that theory, let just understand the concept first..

lets change this equation

normal self -> fear/anxiety source (EXAM, CASE STUDY) -> stress = not STUDYING

to....

normal self -> desensitizing of fearful sources, constant exposure and reduce intensity of fear (GROUP DISCUSSION, WATCH DRAMAS, SLEEP AND EAT WITH YOUR NOTES, KEEP CHANTING THAT EXAM WAS NOT A BIG DEAL) -> stress, but not tooo stress = ENJOY LIFE while REVISING

hah, the equation doesn't look right. but worth trying...
  
why oh why????
why students are stressed during study week...


http://www.emocutez.com
people were gossiping. .....

they said A had covers all the topics. she's so going to be in the dean list! have you read on **** yet? i heard that question is a favourite!


http://www.emocutez.com
psychologically defeated student said: 
huh? who said so? why didn't anyone told me??? i didn't 
study hard enough. oh no i'm screwed!!  


http://www.emocutez.com
a prepared student will react:

oh, is it? then i'll just revised it while watching my korean series, don't worry, i have some ideas about that topic, i had a lectures on it before...i thought we all do? dean list is just another list. if i deserved it, then i will be listed. don't get me wrong, i love study, i just don't study hard~~  


so????

better stop abusing 'study week' with a 'weak' way of studying!
enough of whining and start being productive! 

signing off...i love EXAM~~~

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

:: mind over body ::

assalamualaikum...



the heart are not meant to think, it is there to feel...
because it cannot interprets what 'rational' is...
and can't differentiate dreams from reality...
so next time, please.....
just let brain do the thinking...

and let those feelings withers away...
cause it's never meant to bloom...

am trying....and still trying...

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

bila otak perlu glucose lebih..

assalamualaikum...


http://www.emocutez.com http://www.emocutez.com http://www.emocutez.com
huu, mmg rase nak bakor je..nak bakor..nak bakor!!
sem ini sangat gila, writing assignment, program, seminar, posting, writing case, present case..arghhh!!! ape kes??? masa pulak berlalu dengan pantas, tau2 jer lagi 3,4 minggu nak exam..assignment yang pending beratur berderet2 lagi...memang tension, rasa nak give up, rasa macam dunia tak adil, rasa nak..huuuuu...............

http://www.emocutez.com




mengucap~~~

sebelum aku jadi calon wad PSY, baik aku lastik jauh-jauh dulu perkataan STRESS itu pergi dari aku. antara kaedah yang boleh digunapakai :::::



 MAKAN



first stop, majlis makan malam sempena program khidmat masyarakat dekat trolak anjuran KTHO bangi. tepat of course la kat ukm bangi, dekat rumah felo. walaupun tak ramai yang datang tapi makan tetap makan. siap ade wayang pacak lg..


















makanan home cook oleh pihak KTHO. kami yang datang jauh-jauh ni hanya sempat beratur ambik makanan, duduk bersila, bace bismillah, NGAP....huhu, maaf la tak dapek nak nolong...bukan tu jer, kat luar ade makanan BBQ, ikan, ayam semua ade...

wayang pacak...layar ngan LCD je sebenarnye..

yang terpacak sambil tengok wayang pacak..cerita Hantu Kak Limah Balik Rumah..watched for the third time but still gelak pecah perut...haish~~

hah, yang ni aktiviti budak2 sekuliah, sekelas, seposting, (se ape lagi..???) mmg suke sangat2!!. jadi rombongan cik kiah yang membawa pelajar-pelajar stress ni pun akhirnya tiba di sebuah restoran steamboat kat area Sunway. restoran Flaming.....

sebelum makan ukur ketebalan pipi dulu, periksa kapasiti makanan yang boleh disuap dalam satu masa..


calon-calon untuk ditelan...
ikut arah jam dari atas: makanan buffet (nasi goreng, kueyteow goreng ayam goreng dll), yong taufu, pilihan makanan steamboat (no seafood for me), makanan yang sudah naik 'steamboat', ais kacang buat sendiri dan aiskrim mocha buat sendiri

hah! memang 'flamming' betul, sampai berasap2 muka dibuatnya....
p/s:...yang asap2 tu effect daripada periuk steamboat..bukan sebab orang sebelah aku yang berasap sebab fikir assignment tak siap...

classmates...seHati sePerut~~

siapa2 yang teringin nak makan atau nak tahu lebih pasal  restoran Flamming ni, bley la klik kat sini. i'm not fond to steamboat concept of eating because most of the menu spells SEAFOOD and i don't like them because they are mean. they will cause unbearable itchiness to my skin and eyes, low grade fever, and worst of all, my nose will end up like a running tap which is very irritating!! and yes, i had just recovered from this allergic attack (thanks to cafe MY workers who fail to understand what 'no seafood' means... ). but anyway, it's worth to try..



  lastttttttt sekali..









siapa2 yang suka minum kopi. nak bagi tahu korang, kopi kat McD sangat seDAPP!!! yup, new addiction, premium roast coffee. walaupun rasa ketinggalan zaman tapi nak cakap jugak! definitely a must in breakfast set at McD. haha, macam la aku selalu breakfast kat McD tu hah....kat 'McYong' ade la...

Sunday, March 27, 2011

:: pergi berlari, terjumpa rezeki ::

assalamualaikum..

aku kena lariiii....tak sanggup nak tengok assignment yg makin menimbun itu. nak lari ikut rombongan pergi main boling, kurang berduit. mahu ikut pergi jalan2 cari makan, terasa berat badan dah cukup banyak bertambah. maka akhirnya larilah membawa diri kepada aktiviti yang tak menggunakan wang atau menambah berat. malahan , mengurangkan sunyi dihati dan mencambah kan ilmu yang ada.


terjumpa benda ini....
first time jumpa BP set yang macam ni. selalu nampak kat buku je. yang butang warna merah tu untuk kawal inflate dan deflate bp cuff. lebih kurang macam suis je. haa, dapat jugak belajar benda baru... 


ya! ke program khidmat masyarakat atau khidmat rakyat bak kata Cik Lex. this is the second time round that i joined sivasanta medical camp. ramai betul adik2 comel memakai salwa kameez serta dhoti, datang untuk pemeriksaan mata. comel je tengok baju diorang. budak tadika kalau tak salah. datang satu kapal kot sebab baju lebih kurang jer..

suka aktiviti begini kerana ia membawa fikiran jauh dari rasa sunyi dihati dan mengurangkan darjah ketepuan di otak dek kerana assignment yang tak putus-putus. procrastinate for a good cause. bila tengok orang ramai datang, tanya macam-macam benda berkaitan kesihatan mereka dan ucap terima kasih bila soalan mereka terjawab, rasa diri dihargai. hah, teringat artikel kat NST sempena hari wanita sedunia dulu. 'women are lacking of 3 A's ; attention, affection and appreciation' bila tengok diri sendiri balik...hmm, mmg betul kurang dapat 3A tu. kurang2 kat sini dapat A yang no 3 tu...haha, agaknye masa ambik SPM dulu sibuk kejar A yang lain sampai tak perasan yang 3A ni pun penting jugak.


AaAaAah, sudah, dah mula lari topik~~~


sebelum balik, Uncle Siva dari sivasanta medical service tu ajak makan tengahari kat Lotus. sebenarnya serba salah sikit bila orang nak belanja makan ni. sebab aku memang selalu tak habiskan makanan. tabiat buruk yang sukar dikikis! bila orang belanja maka terpaksa menelan sedaya yang mungkin. tapi last2 tak habis jugak.

but serious, kalau korg ni pencinta nasi briani, memang berbaloi2 la kalo makan kat Lotus ni. Dengar cerita Sultan Perlis ngan Agong pun pernah makan kat sini. bila aku tengok kedai tu, macam tak percaya pun ade. laeh je ghopenye (sederhana je rupanya). sekali masuk, wah not bad cantik jugak! lagi satu yang spesialnya restoran ni, mereka tak guna pinggan, tapi hidang makanan atas daun pisang. waaa, unik, tak caye, nih, kat bawah ni ade bukti!


hah ambik kau. daun pisang bukan main cantik, licin lagi bersinar. tindakan jimat bajet oleh tuan kedai yang agak kreatif. pasti pakcik, mak cik, abg atau akak yang ambil upah cuci pinggan rasa terkilan sebab khidmat mereka kurang diperlukan disini. by the way nice!



bila dah tambah lauk. ni kira pembuka selera la kot..




tada...nasi briani ayam..tak bley bla..tangan da siap nak menyuap. serius sedap sangat! sampai senak2 perut makan.
tapi tak abis jugak... =( 




    pengajaran untuk hari ini? tak salah kot kalau nak buang masa kat program2 macam ni. tup..tup..dapat durian runtuh. HaHaHa..bukan ini yang dikejar pun...yang penting puas dapat berkhidmat untuk masyarakat.



ps: bukan semua yang ade dalam poket kita tu rezeki kita, tiba2 teringat kata Pn Sam hari tu..by the way, ade sape2 yang teringin makan kat Lotus ni? kat area PJ ade. highly recommended! duit kasi kumpul banyak2 sikit pastu ajak aku sekali... 

Sunday, March 13, 2011

HeartAche

assalamualaikum....


a lot of time, you make me feel that we are good friends...

at one time, you make me feel like i am more than a friend...

and another time, you ignored me as if i'm no longer your friend...

then after some time you talked to me as if nothing had happened...


i don't know what's happening...
sometimes my heart's 'ache' with what you did...
because i truly regard you as a friend...
so please...
let me know if i did anything wrong, cause' i'm just His humble creature..
who can never escape from making mistake...
and i'm just a girl...
with a fragile heart...
so please...




Sunday, March 6, 2011

kosong

assalamualaikum..




Sepi hati terjadi lagi
Mungkin sampai mati aku sepi
Biar senyum hadir di hariku
namun ini hanya ada di bibir
di bibir saja

Aku ini yang bisa mengerti
walaupun yang lain mau mengerti
Namun berat beban hidupku
biarkan saja
Biar saja hanya ku yang tahu

Sejarah cinta dan hidupku
penuh duri dan banyak ranjau
Butuh kesabaran yang penuh
untuk tetap ku berdiri


ada saatnya ku bicara
bila hatiku telah bulat
Sepanjang ku bisa atasi semua
aku tetap diam

sejarah cinta dan hidupku
penuh duri dan banyak ranjau
butuh kesabaran yang penuh
untuk tetap ku berdiri

ada saatnya ku bicara
bila hatiku telah bulat
Sepanjang ku bisa atasi semua
aku tetap diam


sometimes i feel at loss, even though there are a lot of people around me, i'm alone..and suffocating...maybe, it's just a normal cycles in life, at some point, i felt empty. i hope this feeling will go away soon..


ps: mood swing kot...

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